Still going

October another month of being medication free. I am still wary of how thing are going. Mood wise I am OK, no real great downs, the odd bad day, I think I am waiting for the crash, it has happened so many other times that I am kind of expecting it, which I know is the wrong attitude. It is so easy to condition yourself into a certain thinking pattern. I am seeing a therapist, psychologist to support the drug free me. That is helping but bugger me they expect you to look into your self so that we can decipher thought process and patterns. That is scary. I question myself as a parent, as a wife and as an individual. I wonder where my frustration and anger and anguish comes from? There are no bells and whistles for parent hood and marriage.

The holiday plans are still underway. All 4 passports are in now. We are getting quotes then we can book the flights. Just need to save up the money it all. Does not help spending $700 on car service and brakes, $150+ on my therapy sessions (if I did retail therapy for that amount of money each week I would have a new entire wardrobe!!) Sarah needs extraction of teeth that is going to be $++ Good thing Dave and I both work hard, just need to curtail the spending!